I saw a picture of a roller coaster the other day
and realized that’s what my life has been like lately. I got on it just before the holidays and the
ride’s not over yet. Not really the
pattern I wanted to set for 2014, but we do what’s in front of us, eh? It’s Rev. Angelica’s Wild Ride.
Now, I’ve
never been a big fan of roller coasters.
I normally avoid them, yet once one gets on, it’s got to be ridden to
the finish.
As usual, I’m working on being in the moment and being
observant. When the ride is climbing up
I can breathe –when it’s heading down and accelerating, it’s scary. I’ve noticed that when I’m afraid it’s
because I feel like I’m out of control.
I know I’m not the only one having this
experience. I decided to look up “fear
of roller coasters.” As I perused the
various articles, I came up with these points to help us:
1. Make sure you’re not thinking that someone
else has pressured you into being on this ride – this will only add to the
feeling of not being in control. I know
I attracted this ride – maybe I don’t know why I did, but I will.
2. Remember to breathe. Breathing helps
me center myself.
3. Let yourself feel the ride. Some of my feelings have been various types
of loss, anger, sadness, and feeling ‘not enough’. They all come down to fear. Feel the fear, knowing it’s part of the
process and it’s temporary.
4. During the ride, scream. It’s important to express your feelings. Thinking your feelings are negative and covering
them by being positive doesn’t make the feelings go away. It just buries them. Feelings buried decompose. Talk to someone or journal.
5. Outsmart the "scare
factor." Remember that the loops and sudden drops are part of the ride and
are perfectly safe.
Think of the car you’re sitting in as The Divine. Remember my fear of the ride heading down and
speeding up? Someone once told me not to
look down – to tilt my head back and look up. In fact, look up and smile!
6. When you’re in overwhelm, close your
eyes. Go within. Pray, meditate, chant – do whatever you do to
become centered again.
7. Sit in the front car – face it, feel
it, and the ride will be over quicker!
The musician Sting said: “Crisis
is essential to creativity; it’s what makes you do things you couldn’t do
before. Being in a stable situation (might produce)… nicely balanced work – but
not the really good stuff. The really good stuff comes from pain, not comfort.
Pain is essential. If you have not got pain, then you had better go out and get
some.”
With what I’ve written, you might think my life’s
been terrible, but it hasn’t. Most of
the time, I am filled with a deep peace.
I'm having fun living in the gap between what I know and what I don't. I do Know everything is working out for my highest and best good - and it will for you too. God’s got our back. I also Know this: When things seem like they’ve broken down,
the Truth is, they’ve broken through!
AFFIRMATIVE PRAYER
We live in a Field of infinite potentiality. This
Field is the Energy of God. It is the Source and substance of all there
is. It is everywhere present. It is all power. It is all intelligence. It resides in and works through us at every
moment. This is the Truth.
Regardless of appearances, regardless of how I feel,
I remember this Truth at a deep soul level.
I lean on this Truth. I know God’s
got my back. This Field I am calling
God, is working through my thoughts and feelings, attracting to me that which I
am focusing on. I refuse to dwell in
fear. I continually choose to think on
things that are good, things that are pleasing to my mind and heart, things
that nourish my soul.
The roller coaster of Life is now a fun and exciting
ride, one that will add many wonderful stories to my collection. God is good.
Life is good. All is well.
Gratefully I celebrate knowing God in me, as me, is
living a wonderful life.
I release these words into the Law of Mind, feeling
them sink deep into my subject mind with ease.
And so it is.
