These lyrics have been going through my head for days:
“But I would walk 500 miles …And I would walk 500 more”
Even after looking up the rest of the words, these lines were the only ones that stuck in my head. These lines sound like commitment to me!
It made me think that this is what we wanted from our Fathers …. To know that they were so committed to us they would go the extra mile.
Some of us didn’t have the kind of relationship we wish we had. What I do know this Father’s Day weekend, is that regardless what it looked like, our Fathers were doing the best they could at the moment. Just as we do.
Everyone shows their love in different ways. We may miss that love because we want it to look and feel like what we think love is. I remember standing outside my Father’s home one night by my car. He had come out with me, and clumsily put his arms around me and told me to drive safely. Then he fumbled with his wallet and gave me some money. I remember thinking “God, you’re drunk – don’t try to buy my love!” and in my judgment totally missed the sentiment …. A sentiment I was always looking for.
In hindsight, I can see how hard it was for him that night. His love language was to give us things. I wanted hugs and tenderness. He tried, and I rejected it because he followed it with money.
I think the best gift I can give my Father this year, even though he died a few years ago, is an awareness and an owning of my part in our strained relationship. I can let go and do as the last line of the song I started with says: “Surrender – surrender – surrender.”
How about you?
Blessings, Rev. Angelica
In my awareness of the One Life, I allow myself to become as a little child. I acknowledge and accept all the Love that is continually being given to me. I know this Love is Divine Love, and It is unconditional.
As I accept that I am The Beloved, I feel my heart fill with an infinite peace. This peace permeates every cell of my body, creating health. It flows out of me with my breath into my workspace and creates a sense of well-being. It flows into my finances and fulfills my every need. It flows into the hearts and minds of all whom I come in contact with, and they know they are The Beloved as well.
I am so grateful for being a grown up child of God. I allow myself to be more like God in every moment. In gratitude and great joy, I let go and surrender to the Love.
And so It is.
