I've
been talking to a man from Balboa Press, which is the self-publishing
division of Hay House. He calls me once a month to see how I'm doing on
my book. Every month I tell him, "Well.... all I've got to do is collate
the articles...."
The
other day, we chatted for a moment, and then he said, "Did you know
that you first contacted us 508 days ago?" For a moment I couldn't
breathe. "508 days?" I thought "That's almost a year and a half! I could
be holding a book, or even two books, in my hands right now!" I wanted
to cry.
After
I got off the phone, I asked myself "Why am I putting off my good? What
is it that's keeping me from completing this project?" I know that when
I finally do it, the other books won't seem so hard, and I will finally
allow myself to do what I've always loved to do, and get paid for it!
The
only answer that came to me is FEAR. What am I afraid of? Rejection? I
can't be rejected by a publisher when I'm self-publishing! Except, oh
dear, that means I've been rejecting myself.
Well,
before I got off the phone with the salesman, I made a commitment to
myself. It's time. For my birthday on the 19th, I'm choosing to stop
putting off my good. He's calling me around August 1st, and that day I'm
going to sign the contract for the self-publishing package whether I'm
finished collating or not.
This means in the next two weeks, I get to do 3 things:
1.
Decide which book to publish first --- Prosperity 101 (based on my 6
different "Thank God We're Rich Campaigns") or the 365 daily reader
based on my ("Friday Messages" that I've been writing for 10 years! .. I
wonder what a good name would be)
2. Manifest the $1500 for the package
3. Collate the chapters
Part
of me feels relieved, and the other part feels overwhelmed. However,
now that I've made the decision, I am no longer afraid.
FEAR
really is False Evidence Appearing Real. What good have You been
putting off? Join me in going for it! Let's use the following
affirmative prayer to move beyond our fears and see our greater good
manifest in, through and as us now!
AFFIRMATIVE PRAYER:
I
acknowledge that there is a Powerful Presence within me desiring to
express Itself through me. It is the One Life of God - infinitely
intelligent and unconditionally loving. It is impelling me to open up to
It greater than I've ever done before. It already knows Itself as a
bigger idea of me. I now let go of my littleness and let the Spirit
flow.
I
stop blocking Divine Expression with my self-imposed excuses. I now
open my mind and my heart to do the work I am meant to do. I let Divine
Inspiration flow though me with ease and grace. I celebrate my conscious
awareness that everything needed for the fulfillment of this Divine
Desire is already at hand. I trust the Universe to guide me and support
me in every way.
How
grateful I am to have made the decision to play a bigger game in the
realms of infinite potentiality. How grateful I am to know that God's
got my back. I now release these words into the Law of Mind, knowing
they are so, and so it is.
